All you gotta do is answer...

There is so much that God is doing in me, its almost hard to pick just one thing. But, I will. hehe. 

Let me start with a story. A few weeks ago we had a forreal snowmageddon. It was AWFUL! Well, actually. Being stuck in my house for 2 days straight was annoying. Watching Netflix and eating carbs was awesome! haha. Well, eventually I had to get back out into the real world, get the snow off of my car and drive my car on those icy roads. And, lets just say, I was NOT thrilled. Actually, I was scared…terrified was more like it. I didn't have an ice scraper or anything of the sort, so I put on gloves and covered my hands with plastic ziplock bags. Yup, ziplock bags! It was the best I could do...and if I didn't laugh at myself, I would have cried. As I got ready to go outside, I was trying to be strong and quiet the lies… "see you are alone again and no one is here to help you", "you don't know what you are doing, you look ridiculous". As I attempted to scrape the snow off with my hands, I kept thinking "I hope no one sees me out here because I look crazy"… I mean, I wanted the help. I needed the help. But, didn't have a neighbor to ask or anyone to come over. I just felt stuck. 

Then a truck came turning the corner towards me. I hid myself a little and tried to look busy… but, he stopped anyway and rolled his window down. After a short exchange-- he jumped out of his truck and shoveled the snow from my car. Not just my car, but the entire area around the tires too. I tried to act cool, but I was feeling so many emos on the inside. Joy. Comfort. Peace. Love and most of all… thankfulness. As he got back in his truck and drove away he said "God bless you". When I heard those words, all I could do was turn around and let tears stream down my face (as they are right now). 

I walked inside, took my rain boots off, and as clear as I have heard the Lord in a long time, He said to me…

"I will always take care of you. I see you, Nandi". 

Instantly, I fell to my knees. I was undone. 

I was completely undone. 

And my response could have been nothing but to fall on my knees. It was the sweetest and most loving thing that He could have said to me. It wasn't about the snow necessarily, it was that He cared about providing what I needed in the moment of my greatest need… no matter how small it felt to me. And, for the next 45 seconds I spoke words of thanksgiving, awe and love to Him…and my heart was full. I almost can't explain it… but it was like nothing else mattered since I had been with Jesus...

Now, I would like to say that I pray on my knees every night. Or, that I worship on my knees all the time. But, I don't… well, I didn't used to. 

Since the day, I have found myself dropping to my knees while brushing my teeth. Or, typing an email. Or after reading a tweet. Or while listening to a song. Or just while walking into the kitchen. I have realized that any moment, any time, any day, any place can be set apart by God for me to commune with Him. I don't have to have candles on in the background, or my bible out in front of me… or my prayer journal and 3 highlighters. I can intimately connect with my Father at anytime, anywhere, anyhow. It is just that simple, and just that life changing!  All I have to do is answer Him…as He beckons me...

Over the past few weeks, I have found that as I give him those moments in the car, and those times on my lunch break… my heart is starting to long for more of Him, my appetites for this world are starting to change and my love for Him is growing. It is the sweetest thing to experience. 

I don't know about you, but I have made so many things about my relationship with Jesus SOOOOOO complicated. When really, its simple. Receive His love, love Him back and love others. And, if there is anyone who is reading this and isn't sure of this whole Jesus and God thing…my encouragement is for you to start to ask Jesus, the person, to show you who He really is. Jesus promises that anyone that opens up their heart to Him, giving Him their lives... can experience what I talked about above… no matter what, no matter who! He wants us to know Him and be loved by Him!

My life is far from perfect. But, I am thankful that in these moments… in these private, precious moments with the Lord… none of that matters. All that matters is He is there, drawing me. And I am on my knees, answering. 

He's so good.